December 20, 1951

Thursday, November 22nd, 2007 08:58 pm
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So I guess it's normal to kiss your friends where Orihime comes from... It still seems pretty weird to me. That's twice now. But, I guess it's nice. I just don't think I could do it. I mean, it's showing something that I'm not sure I actually... feel.

That's the problem with this whole holiday. I think I care about people. I want to care. But hell if I know whether I actually do, and if all it is is a thought, then I'm just lying to everyone if I do anything to prove it. Maybe the reason I'm bad at showing this stuff is because there's nothing to show. Orihime doesn't believe it, and Gert thinks it's stupid, but... it's not like they know any better than I do.

Then again- maybe it's not worth thinking about. I can't change, and I can't figure it out, so I might as well just.. go with it, right? If Orihime knows it might not be real, and she's okay with it, then there's no reason we can't say we're friends. If nothing else, she cares about me, and... Even when it's one-sided, I think it still means something.

Right. So. Just forget all that stuff. I've never celebrated Christmas before, it should be fun once I figure out this whole shopping thing.

...I wish Olette were here. She'd be able to help me figure out what to get people.

Date: 2007-11-23 17:18 (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Hey Roxas? You okay?

((Sora can't really hack, but... i think he can probably tell something's on Roxas' mind))

Date: 2007-11-23 17:23 (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Alright, if- if you say so.

So you're gonna celebrate Christmas and everything with everybody, right?

Date: 2007-11-23 17:31 (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Of course it is! Why wouldn't it be?

Date: 2007-11-23 17:41 (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Oh. But if you really want to give somebody a present, then you should give it to them. It's also the thought that counts, right? And I know you think about things a lot.

Date: 2007-11-23 18:11 (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
So it's a good thing I reminded you!

...This is what you were thinking too much about, huh?

Date: 2007-11-23 23:46 (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
I guess that's true.

Of course! We're friends, after all! Which reminds me, what would you want for a present, Roxas?

Date: 2007-11-24 00:36 (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Aw, man... Well, I guess I'll just have to figure out what to get you myself.

...Are you gonna get something for Orihime~?

Date: 2007-11-24 02:36 (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Well... if we're sorta supposed to be the same person, maybe we want the same things? So maybe if I want a jacket... Do you want a jacket?

Oh reeeeally? So what're you gonna get her?

Date: 2007-11-24 02:56 (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Right?! That's exactly what I was thinking! I mean, what they gave us here just doesn't help much against the cold.

So where are you gonna find the fabric?

Date: 2007-11-24 03:11 (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Yeah, I asked him for one... But I guess I should've asked him for another one for you.

Oh, right!! Yeah, I guess they would have it somewhere! So you've got enough mu- I mean, credits for it, right?

Date: 2007-11-24 03:25 (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Well, I'll get you one anyway. Maybe I'll send him another letter...

Okay! And if you need any help with that, you know I don't mind helping.

Date: 2007-11-24 03:30 (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Why not? I don't think he'd mind much...

Date: 2007-11-24 03:44 (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Since... Since, um... Well, you- ...There was- ... um...

Maybe I could call it a favor for helping him out before...

Date: 2007-11-24 03:55 (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
I don't think you'll get coal, Roxas! Maybe you haven't been the best this year, but you haven't really been bad.

Date: 2007-11-24 04:09 (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
But- that was... Things were different then, right? It shouldn't...

...I guess even if Santa does get you coal, you'll still get real presents from the rest of us.

Date: 2007-11-24 04:18 (UTC)
From: [identity profile]

But- you really can't think of anything else you'd want for Christmas?

Date: 2007-11-24 04:25 (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
... Yeah, I- guess that's true. But we can manage with small things for now, right?

Date: 2007-11-24 04:55 (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Huh? No, it- it's okay...


Date: 2007-11-24 05:05 (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Oh, a-alright. Same goes for me, okay?